Archive for January 2008

Blast from the past...

I am so a child of the 80's. I love everthing about that decade. The hair, makeup, music, movies, spandex, bright colored clothing, jelly bracelets, jelly shoes, wearing multiple colored socks, and on and on. Everytime we go home I spend way too many hours watching Best of the 80's on VH1. The ringtone for my phone is Girls just wanna have fun by Cindy Lauper. I just have so many great memories that have to do with the fun and weirdness of that decade.

Speaking of 80s music my abosolute favorite band was NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK. I so loved Joey with his sparkling blue eyes. My bedroom was covered in posters and cut outs from all the teen magazines. I had all their tapes and videos. I would even record them if they were on a show. I remember recording SNL and the Macy's thanksgiving day parade because they performed. One year basically everything I got for christmas was NKOTB. I had a sleeping bag and the action figures. Oh, I just remembered one summer I got an awful sunburn that itched and itched, the only relief I found was when I watched the NKOTB videos!! (If you are a late 20 early 30 year old woman you are shaking your head in agreement as you remember your zealous love for all that was NKOTB!!!!)

My plan was to go to college at Harvard just so I could be in Boston and maybe run into Joey. I had dreams about he and I meeting and falling in love and getting married. But sadly they broke up and I grew up. My obsession ceased and me and joey went on with our seperate lives. I have read here and there that he has gotten married and recently had a child.

But today the NKOTB silence has been broken. On my google homepage I get updates from PEOPLE magazine and today I noticed one about NKOTB so I clicked over. It seems as though they are making a comeback. Now this could be good or bad, I guess we will just have to wait and see what happens. But I must say I have a little bit of 12 year old girl excitement going on!!

Now for an adult topic!!! I saw the RE yesterday and started my meds. Follistim once daily and go back for blood draw on Sunday. I must say that I am extremely excited and hopeful about this cycle. I don't want to get too hopeful because then I will have further to fall if this doesn't work, but it's hard not to.

Oh, because I am crazy and like to have my heart broken I looked to see when my edd would be. November...oh how that would be the best birthday present ever.

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Thoughts on a dreary friday...

The weatherman predicted freezing rain and snow. I was all excited about maybe not having to go to work today. Well, no such luck. Woke up this morning and it was raining, but it was also 36 degrees outside. So here I am!

We watched Shoot Em Up with Clive Owen last night. Now everyone knows I am a HUGE Clive Owen fan, but this movie, really? He has so much more potential. I would not recommend this movie to anyone. Too many stupid things that could never happen in real life, it is very unrealistice. I know it's an action movie, but it goes above and beyond in the unrealistic department. I think I need to see the new Elizabeth movie so Clive can redeem himself a little!!

I took an hpt yesterday. Of course there was only one line. I had to take it to make sure it was ok to start the provera. I am praying that will be the last time I see only one line!!

Can I say how bummed I am that the writers strike happened this year? Well I really am. This is the last season of scrubs and there have only been 3 new episodes. I wonder what they are going to do about it, if they will just start back up once the strike is over? I guess I will just have to wait and see.

My google reader finally says 0. Woohoo. I have been behind since Christmas when I didn't read anything for a week. This takes such a load off. I hate being behind on all the news. But now I don't have anything to do while I'm bored!!! So ladies, start bloggin!

I get new insurance starting 2/1. It still won't pay for anything, but at least my deductible is 2000 instead of 3000. And I have prescription coverage!!

Ok, it has taken me all day to type this post. I was busy at work, and my boss was here so I have to look like I don't know what the internet is for!! All this to say I now have 19 blogs in my reader. I better get busy or I'll be swamped again!

I hope you all have a great weekend. :)

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Going for another ride...

So I'm jumping back on the IF rollercoaster. I saw my RE today and we have a new game plan. IUI with injectibles. Woohoo. I will see her for my baseline sono and she will give me the meds and tell me what to do. They don't do an injections class, they just teach you personaly. But I give SQ shots all the time, so it's no big deal.

We talked about a lot of stuff she wants to try. She said it won't hurt so might as well do all we can. I am gonna do the metformin:( it kills me, but I will be more than happy to endure. Also, gonna do baby aspirin and progesterone after ovulation. May even do some heparin.

So there is the game plan. Now we just wait for AF to show. I got a script for provera just in case. I am so freakin excited to be TTC again. I have so much hope right now, and I just pray that this will work and I will have a baby very soon.

I'll keep you posted!!

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I finally did it...

I GOT INKED!!! Yup that's right, I got a tattoo. How crazy am I?!? Beth and I have been talking about getting one for a few months now and we finally took the plunge and got matching tattoos. And no we aren't freshman suitemates!!! We are almost 30 and needed to do something to outwardly show all the suffering and pain we have been through!!! When people see the tat they will ask us about it and it will foster conversation about infertility and pregnancy loss.

So we both got crosses with a halo on top. The cross is to remind us that Christ died for us and our lifes purpose is to bring Him glory. The halo is to represent all that we have waiting for us in heaven. My 4 little ones and Beth's 3 little ones up there playing together watching over their mommies!!

So here's the proof

This is Jessica. She did Beth's. My guy, Jimmy, was out on a smoke break I think!!! This was Jessica's first day at this particular palor. She just moved to tx from ny.

Here it is right after. All covered in goo and wrapped in plastic wrap!!

And here it is today. It seems to be healing really well. It never bled. It only hurts a little, usually when I put the goo on it. I have to go back in 30 days to see if it needs any touch ups and I may be getting number 2 then!!!

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Will we ever be accepted?

I am still truly amazed at the naivety and insensitivity of people towards the infertile world. First, thanks Mel for alerting us all to the underlying plan!!! The Tyra Banks Show was doing an episode on infertility. When I first heard of this I was excited. We are trying to get infertility out there so maybe people won't look at us like we are crazy. So this was a great opportunity...or so I thought. This is a blurb from Tyra's website looking for guests for the show.


Do you know a woman who is obsessed with becoming a mom? Have you seen and heard her struggle for years, felt her unvoiced jealously and seen her desperation first hand? Have you watched silently for too long as she gets her hopes up only to be disappointed and heartbroken when she can’t conceive? Has she tried extreme methods and spent a lot of money to get pregnant with no luck? Do you want to finally tell her she needs to stop the emotional and physical stress on her body and seriously consider adoption or a surrogate alternative? If you know a woman who is obsessed with becoming a mom and getting pregnant, then submit below.

What words can I use to express how I feel about this? None really. I try to keep this blog pretty clean and kid friendly, you know besides all the talk about the working of my insides!

This is how society view us, views me. I am crazy for trying and spending money and I just need someone to tell me to stop and just adopt. Because clearly adoption is soooo much easier...but I digress. I have talked about adoption in length on this blog so I won't go there now. Instead I will talk about how it is nobody elses freaking business how much money I spend or how many years it takes me to have a baby.

People that would sign up for this show are no friend to an infertile. This show does nothing to help educate people on infertility. All it does is demean those of us who have to work our butts off to make the dream of a family come true. I am just so disappointed that with all the tolerance we have for everything these days, there still seems to be no room in the for infertiles.

I have never been a fan of the Tyra show. But I do love America's Next Top Model. But I am ticked off enough and have enough conviction that I will not be watching that anymore.

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