I'm good at what I do...

and what I do is waste time. I have successfully wasted a WHOLE day. I have done nothing of worth today. No really, it's true. Here is a list of what I have done

  1. check email
  2. check forum
  3. check facebook
  4. read blogs
  5. read new blog through a friends blog
  6. decide to change my blog format
  7. check email
  8. check forum
  9. check facebook
  10. continue working on blog format
  11. check forum
  12. check email
  13. check facebook
  14. still working on layout
  15. check forum
  16. decide to write a blog post about how lazy I am

So there you have it. Of course in there I also fed, changed and played with the baby, while that is important I still wasted my day. Here is the list of things I should be doing.

  1. dishes
  2. vacuum
  3. mop
  4. oragnize Kai's clothes
  5. laundry
  6. finish the painting I started 2 years ago!!
  7. work out
  8. take baby for a walk
  9. play with the dog
  10. fold towels
  11. reading my bible and praying
  12. and on and on and on and on and on and on...

So you ask, "Rian why are you being so lazy?" That is a very good question and I think the answser is depression. I don't think it is PPD, I just think it is because of our current situation. You know josh unemployed, we have no health insurance, no job prospects, i can't motivate myself to lose weight, I don't ever leave this house except to work one day a week, and on and on and on and on...

Of course it is a neverending cycle. I'm depressed so I don't do any housework. I look at how messy my house is and that makes me depressed. I'm depressed so I eat crap and drink coke. I see how I haven't lost any weight and it makes me depressed. It really sucks.

BTW, check out my new blog layout. I'm no finished with it, but I think it is coming along nicely!!

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