Dear Kai,

Two years ago today my life changed forever.  I had been on a journey for 4 years and on that day my journey ended.  I had acheived my life long dream...I became a mother (to a living child).  You made that dream come true.

I remember the day you were born like it was yesterday.  Your stubborn streak was apparent very early when you decided you weren't going to come out on your own.  Ten days after your due date we decided we could wait no longer to meet you.  It was the most painful and the happiest 3.5 hours of my life.  Your daddy and Yaya were there and my two wonderful friends Donna and Diane.  It went perfectly...and you were perfect.

When I saw you first I was in disbelief.  Could this really be happening?  Could you really be mine to take home and raise and love?  You were beautiful and I fell head over heals the first moment I saw you. 

The last two years with you have been the 2 best years of my life.  They have also been hard.  We went through daddy losing his job.  Moving back to our home town, leaving all our friends.  Living with your grandparents.  Daddy making less money.  Mommy losing one of her dearest friends.  Moving into an apartment.  But none of that really matters since you are here.  We can make it through any hard time together.  You make mommy and daddy better people and for that I will be forever grateful.

I cannot tell you how wonderful it is that I get to spend all day, every day with you.  I revel in watching you grow and learn.  You can count to 10.  You know a lot of colors.  You know what a lot of animals say.  You can say any word and you are making sentences.  You love Cars and Nemo and Buzz.  You LOVE word world.  You like to ride your bike and push your lawnmower.  You love to chase the dog.  You love all of your grandparents...I could go on and on.

These last two years seem to have gone by so quickly...you are growing up and all I can do is stand back and watch.  I would love for you to stay little forever, but I also can't wait for you to get older and all the things we will be able to do. 

Tonight when I was putting you down for bed I looked into your eyes and wondered what kind of man you will be.  My prayer is that you will be a great man.  That you will love your Lord and your family with all your heart.  That you will be sensitive and kind, but also strong and dependable.  I have so many dreams for you but I can't wait to find out what dreams you will have for yourself.  The world is open to you my sweet boy, you can do anything that you want.

Just know that I treasure every moment that we spend together.  Always remember that I love you more than words can ever say.  You are the sweetest boy I know and I am so happy that you are mine.

My love forever,
Mama