Life continues to be crazy and chaotic. So much is in my brain right now and I will try to do my best to put it into some form that you can understand.

I have been thinking a lot lately how having an unemployed husband and being on the verge of financial ruin is much like having a miscarriage. It seems Josh and I are standing in one spot watching the world continue to spin around us. People are buying houses/cars, going on vacation, having babies, all while we just hope we have enough money to pay the bills AND buy the baby some food. It is a really odd reality that we are living in at the moment. It is hard to wrap my head around the fact the a highly educated man cannot find a job making more than 8.50 an hour.

There was a time just merely a week ago when I could see the light at the end of the tunnel. We had some one interested in our house (it was between ours and another) and Josh had a job interview with an architecture firm in Amarillo. Finally it was all going to work out, or so I thought. Apparently the people chose the other house since we have heard nothing from their realtor. As for the interview, well it went exceptionally well. They actually offered Josh the job, making $20,000 less than he made at his last job. We thought and prayed and Josh gave them a counter offer...they declined. So now what do we do?