It probably doesn't sound as good coming from my dad and not Donald Trump. Yep that's right my dad fired me. I had been doing his books for his restaurants, long story short he went from 5 to 3 and decided he could do them himself. This is just the latest in a string of weirdness between him and me. I am going to really have to pray about what the Lord wants to do with this relationship because I don't think I have it in me to continue. Let me give you some back ground, my dad let my step dad adopt me and so I hadn't seen him for 12 years and I wrote him a letter and we started a relationship. It has never been what I wanted it to be and am beginning to think it will never come close. I think he likes having me in his life because it some how lessens his guilt for what he did. But it is too hard on me. So I may be dadless once again. I guess I have always really been dadless since I don't call him dad and I don't think he lives up to what a dad should be, but I digress.
On a completely unrelated note my whole body hurts. Annie and I have been working out and my muscles don't appreciate it. Everytime I bend over or have to sneeze I am in pain, but I guess that is the price I gotta pay to be in shape!!
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