So today is Sunday the 19th. On Wednesday the 8th I found out that I was pregnant again. I was excited but a little reserved since the last pregnancy ended in miscarriage. Well by Monday I had miscarried again. So this last week has been really hard. The title of the post comes from the Tree 63 song that says "Every blessing you pour out I'll turn back to praise. When the darkness closes in Lord still I will say blessed be your name." This song really helped me the first time and it is helping this time. I have to realize that God is still a good God regardless of what my circumstances are. He will always be there and still loves me regardless of my pain and suffering. He will heal my heart and my suffering will be for His glory. "You give and take away, my heart will choose to say blessed be your name." That is what I choose. I want to praise Him in the middle of my tears. I want to show the world that even though for reasons I cannot know or understand my God is still good. I live in a sinful and fallen world. But my God will always be here. And He will meet me in the midst of my suffering. He cries when I cry and rejoices when I rejoice. Thank you Lord that you gave me this second child if only for a moment. Thank you that my baby is in heaven with you and that one day i will get to see them both.