A Day in The Life of a Moody Person

I am so excited to announce the birth of baby Alexander Isaiah. His mom, dad, brothers Eli and AJ have anxiously awaited his arrival. He truly is a little blessing and so adorable.

Having a baby has made me aware of many things. Some good, some bad. But one thing that I am utterly aware of is how fleating life really is. We are here only for a moment and then we are gone. And we never know when that time will come. Sorry this is such a downer but I watched Marley and Me today and I have been reading a new blog.

I have been reading the story of Maddie's life. She was such a beautiful girl and she had such a beautiful spirit. My heart breaks for all that she had to go through for such a little person and for all that her parents are having to go through right now.

Just remember to treasure every moment you have with the ones you love. I know I will, I'm going to hug and kiss my boy right now.

and what I do is waste time. I have successfully wasted a WHOLE day. I have done nothing of worth today. No really, it's true. Here is a list of what I have done

1. check email
2. check forum
3. check facebook
4. read blogs
5. read new blog through a friends blog
6. decide to change my blog format
7. check email
8. check forum
9. check facebook
10. continue working on blog format
11. check forum
12. check email
13. check facebook
14. still working on layout
15. check forum
16. decide to write a blog post about how lazy I am

So there you have it. Of course in there I also fed, changed and played with the baby, while that is important I still wasted my day. Here is the list of things I should be doing.

1. dishes
2. vacuum
3. mop
4. oragnize Kai's clothes
5. laundry
6. finish the painting I started 2 years ago!!
7. work out
8. take baby for a walk
9. play with the dog
10. fold towels
11. reading my bible and praying
12. and on and on and on and on and on and on...

So you ask, "Rian why are you being so lazy?" That is a very good question and I think the answser is depression. I don't think it is PPD, I just think it is because of our current situation. You know josh unemployed, we have no health insurance, no job prospects, i can't motivate myself to lose weight, I don't ever leave this house except to work one day a week, and on and on and on and on...

Of course it is a neverending cycle. I'm depressed so I don't do any housework. I look at how messy my house is and that makes me depressed. I'm depressed so I eat crap and drink coke. I see how I haven't lost any weight and it makes me depressed. It really sucks.

BTW, check out my new blog layout. I'm no finished with it, but I think it is coming along nicely!!

Here are some 3 month pics of Kai and some family shots too, all taken by Beth. Enjoy...

Howdy. I know it's been a while. I am full of excuses, one of them being that my laptop was dead because the cord wasn't working anymore, so I had to order a new one. Another excuse is that I am just lazy. I knew I couldn't post without pictures and I wasn't in the mood to upload the 18 kajillion pics I have taken of the baby!!

So much has happened since my last post. First, josh got laid off at the beginning of January and still hasn't found a job. Architecture/retail development is just not the field to be in during this recession. It just really sucks that the reality is a Masters degree does not guarantee job stability. So if you think about it will you pray for us. The stress is starting to get to Josh. Last time he lost his job it wasn't such a big deal because I had a job and we didn't have a baby. I can't imagine the weight Josh is carrying right now.

On to happier news. Kai is doing great. He is such a wonderful baby and brings so much joy to our lives. He smiles all the time. He hasn't laughed yet but we can't wait to hear it. He is now in 3-6 months clothes, which made me said because there are so many cute outfits he will never wear again. He loves to sit and look around. He just has to know what is going on at all times. He loves his bebepod for this reason. His fingers have become his best friends. He loves to suck on them and drool all over the place. He goes through multiple shirts a day because they get soaked with drool. He does have a bad habit of sticking his fingers too far in his mouth and choking himself. I try to tell him not to but he doesn't listen to me! He loves to talk. He always has so much to say and is very demonstartive about it.

He is just the sweetest most adorable thing I have ever seen. We bought a video camera and as soon as I get the software on the computer I will be happy to share his adorableness with you. but for now you will have to settle for some pictures!!!

He loves his penguin!!

Here is the cutest, most sweetest smile ever.

He is an escape artist. We had to stop using the swaddler because he was getting his hands out of it and defeating the whole purpose!

We just started putting him in his jumper. (Thanks Beth!!) It is a little big for him still but he loves it. He especially loves to chew on the seat.

This is how the cute boy likes to sleep.

Here are some cute pics of me and Kai and another one with grandma.

Man how time flies. I know it has been forever since I posted last. Lots has been going on. Kai has been growing like a weed. It is so amazing being his mother. He is so much fun and such a good baby.

We had a great Christmas. We were in Amarillo for 10 days. Everyone got to see him and spend plenty of time holding him!! We had 5 generation pictures taken with my side of the family. He has a great great grandmother who is 93 years old. It was great getting to see family and friends and spend some quality time with our nephew Miles, who is just adorable and getting so big.

Now we are just trying to figure this mommy, son thing out. I'm trying to figure out how to be a stay at home mom and get stuff done. Kai really likes to fall asleep with me holding him (I know I'm spoiling him) so I usually don't do much. But Josh is such a good hubby and daddy he understands. And I must say this is the best job I have ever had!!!

Here are some pics for your enjoyment!

My friend Beth is so awesome. She is going to take pics of Kai every month for his first year. She does a fabulous job. You should really check out her website. Here are some pics from his first photo shoot.