and what I do is waste time. I have successfully wasted a WHOLE day. I have done nothing of worth today. No really, it's true. Here is a list of what I have done
- check email
- check forum
- check facebook
- read blogs
- read new blog through a friends blog
- decide to change my blog format
- check email
- check forum
- check facebook
- continue working on blog format
- check forum
- check email
- check facebook
- still working on layout
- check forum
- decide to write a blog post about how lazy I am
So there you have it. Of course in there I also fed, changed and played with the baby, while that is important I still wasted my day. Here is the list of things I should be doing.
- dishes
- vacuum
- mop
- oragnize Kai's clothes
- laundry
- finish the painting I started 2 years ago!!
- work out
- take baby for a walk
- play with the dog
- fold towels
- reading my bible and praying
- and on and on and on and on and on and on...
So you ask, "Rian why are you being so lazy?" That is a very good question and I think the answser is depression. I don't think it is PPD, I just think it is because of our current situation. You know josh unemployed, we have no health insurance, no job prospects, i can't motivate myself to lose weight, I don't ever leave this house except to work one day a week, and on and on and on and on...
Of course it is a neverending cycle. I'm depressed so I don't do any housework. I look at how messy my house is and that makes me depressed. I'm depressed so I eat crap and drink coke. I see how I haven't lost any weight and it makes me depressed. It really sucks.
BTW, check out my new blog layout. I'm no finished with it, but I think it is coming along nicely!!
