A Day in The Life of a Moody Person

Ok to all my readers (don't act surprised that I have so many devoted fans) I must say that I have the best little brother in the whole world. (Dougie, you may not want to read this because I'm probably going to embarass you!!) Ok so here's the scoop. He is 15, a straight A student, plays almost every musical insturment ever invented and is a poet. He is just AWESOME!!!! Everytime I think about him I just smile. Just the thought of how great he is makes me all happy and tingly. Sadly though we do live in different towns and I miss him terribly. He is growing up so fast and soon he will be graduated and off to college. Or he may be on the road touring with his band. Either way it will all happen too soon. But I really can't wait to see what he does with his life and where the Lord will take him. I know that God has great plans for him and I am so excited to see what they are. Thanks Dougie for being the best little brother in the whole world. I can't wait until spring break either, we are gonna have a blast.

Here is the link to his website that has some of his poetry. You are gonna wanna stop by and read it and be amazed!!
http://poetofsilence.deviantart.com/

So today is Sunday the 19th. On Wednesday the 8th I found out that I was pregnant again. I was excited but a little reserved since the last pregnancy ended in miscarriage. Well by Monday I had miscarried again. So this last week has been really hard. The title of the post comes from the Tree 63 song that says "Every blessing you pour out I'll turn back to praise. When the darkness closes in Lord still I will say blessed be your name." This song really helped me the first time and it is helping this time. I have to realize that God is still a good God regardless of what my circumstances are. He will always be there and still loves me regardless of my pain and suffering. He will heal my heart and my suffering will be for His glory. "You give and take away, my heart will choose to say blessed be your name." That is what I choose. I want to praise Him in the middle of my tears. I want to show the world that even though for reasons I cannot know or understand my God is still good. I live in a sinful and fallen world. But my God will always be here. And He will meet me in the midst of my suffering. He cries when I cry and rejoices when I rejoice. Thank you Lord that you gave me this second child if only for a moment. Thank you that my baby is in heaven with you and that one day i will get to see them both.

Well, today in church Greg talked about worship. About being undignified in our worship. Being free to express our love for the Lord. Not worrying about what others think and not trying to live up to some kinda Christian ideal, or go the other direction and being stagnent in our worship. That there is freedom in our church. Which there really is. That is one of the main things I love about my church is that there is freedom to be who we are in Christ. To follow as the spirit leads. So he talked about raising hands, kneeling, dancing, laying on the floor. All things that are mentioned in the Bible concerning worshipping the Lord. King David danced in the streets. And he wasn't concerned with anyone who had the thought that he wasn't acting like a king. He was praising his Lord.

I had some thoughts along this same line last week. When I was at church during worship last week there was a person behind me who was very vocal in their praising of the Lord. Saying things and during one song actually crying. At first I was a little annoyed. It was a distraction and I was trying to worship too. But then I realized how wrong I was. This person truly loved the Lord and was expressing that. And then I asked myself why I couldn't do that? Why was I so stagnent in my love for the Lord? It is a question that I am still trying to answer. Why am I so afraid of what people will think is really the bottom line. Why can't I be unhindered with my God.

So as you read this I want you to ask yourself what Greg asked all of us. First he said that demonstartive worship has nothing to do with your personality. Whether you are an introvert or an extrovert. It has to do with the overflow of your heart. So he mentioned that today was superbowl Sunday and he told us to watch how people and ourselves are when watching a football game and think why can we not express our love to the Lord of the universe, the God that saved us from eternal damnation the same way we express when someone makes a touchdown????

Thoughts???

So what's up with you guys?? Oh well, that sounds exciting!!

Anywho, I hope that I'm one of those three people that Becki talked about that update their blogs regularly. I know that I have been slacking lately, but I'm working on that.

So the building that I work in has 4 offices in it. When I got here this morning I noticed that the bench in the courtyard area was broken and then I noticed that Dr. Adam's window was broken. Apparently they threw the bench on the ground to break it and then used one of the pieces to break the window. They took some cash, a tv and vcr and some other small things. Also, the electrical box on the back of the building that turns the lights out was open and messed with. Spooky. I'm getting Deja Vu from becki's work getting broke into. It just amazes me that people can be so self centered that they think they can take whatever they want. They are too good to work and be a normal part of society. They take what they want from anybody that happens to be there. Our house got broken into once. It was scary. They did it between Josh leaving for work and coming home for lunch. The stole a necklace that Josh gave me for Valentines day that was irreplaceable. It makes me so mad when I think about it.

Too bad we don't live in a perfect world. The only thing that makes this life easier is knowing that the Lord will deal out His justice and people can only run from Him for so long.

Ok, I have been tagged by my lovely friend Becki. Being a fairly new blogger I assume I just write about the things that she did, so here is my list.

Four jobs I've had.

1. The Swiss Pretzel
2. Dillards
3. The Gap
4. JCPenny

Four movies I love to watch over and over.

1. Everafter
2. The Emperors New Grove
3. Anything with Ben Stiller and Owen Wilson (ie Starsky and Hutch, Zoolander)
4. Last of the Mohicans

Four TV show I love to watch.

1. King of Queens
2. Scrubs
3. CSI Miami
4. Love Monkey

Four websites I visit daily.

1. sbc.yahoo.com
2. blogger.com
3. ebay.com
4. popcap.com

Four foods I love.

1. Beef fajitas from Pappasitos
2. Buffalo chicken salad from Chilis
3. Any kind of steak
4. Mexican food

Four beers I like, well I don't really like beer, so I'm gonna do the 4 alcoholic drinks I like.

1. Margaritas
2. White Russian
3. Flavored Martinis
4. Wine

Ok Now I am suppossed to tag some people, but I don't know any one else who has a blog. So I guess I can't tag anyone. How empty my life is!!

How do to all!! So this was a pretty good weekend. We had our women's breakfast at my house so Josh and I cleaned our little butts off on Friday. After the women's breakfast we ran some errands, had a nap and then went to dinner at Saltgrass, they have great steak. I love weekends like that where you don't really have anything to do so you can relax and take it easy. Of course we are living in denial about not having anything to do because we still have a whole garage full of boxes to unpack!!!! My plan is to have them done by Valentine's day, of course I wanted to have them unpacked by the end of Jan but I'm pretty sure that won't work out.

So yesterday Aubrey (my biological father) and his wife Stephanie came over to see the house and we went to lunch. We went to Pappasittos. Oh my gosh they have the best beef fajitas. If you haven't had them yet you have to try them. They seriously are one of my favorite meals. Oh and I had some leftovers so guess what I'm having for lunch today!! What What!! We had a good time with Aubrey and Steph. We talked and laughed. It was good because our conversations tend to be really surfacy with them, but this was nice, not really deep but still nice.

Ok, so I'm a little sick today. There was something that blew in on Saturday that has gotten me. I'm stuffed up and running all at the same time. It's crazy. You would think that since I work for an allergy dr. that I wouldn't have to suffer so much, but that's not the case. Since we have been trying to get pregnant I haven't been able to really take anything. I had some benadryl last night and I think it helped. I was going to bring some with me to work to take today but I forgot. So I will suffer through the day with my wonderful allergies.

On a different note, Josh's parents came to visit this weekend. We had a really good time. We ate a lot, I mean a lot. We went to Ikea which was fun, but it wore me out. I think it was too soon after the last time. But we got the two cabinets that we forgot. Josh and his dad started to put up the cabinet doors. They look really good. It's weird to have to open a door to get a glass for some water!! Hopefully we will finish those tonight. Josh's parents also brought us our new HUGE KING BED. It is so big, it's crazy how big it is. Josh and me and both cats can be on it and not feel each other. So we got to move the full size bed into the office. We bought a duvet cover for our comforter. Now I need to get some stuff to stuff these pillow cases I have that have the brown and blue in them. And we still have to paint with the blue, I think we are going to put a border around the windows and doors with it. I think it will look really nice once it is done. We have to get the house in order because we are having the women's breakfast there on saturday. Lot's of work left to do!!!