We are getting desperate here in Moody land. Josh has been unemployed for almost 5 months and funds are starting to run pretty thin. We have been living off of our tax return, which I am so thankful that we got, but it is almost gone.

Josh has applied for many jobs in Amarillo, but there were two that looked really good. He actually interviewed for one, but since then both places are under a hiring freeze (thank you Fort worth Bell Helicopter for deciding to strike!).

So we are still stuck in limbo land. Do we stay here and josh gets some random job (ie: bestbuy, walmart) or do we go ahead and move and he gets a random job in Amarillo? Do we want our house to be empty? We will have to pay someone to water the flowers, take care of the yard and take care of the pool. If we wait too long to move home my MIL will be going back to school and I don't want the stress of starting school and us moving to be happening at the same time. Why is no one looking at our house? It is the cheapest one in the neighborhood and has the biggest yard and a pool.

So many questions and basically no answers. Life is just a little complicated right now. I am working on trusting God through all of this. I know 100% that I am not in control of anything that is going on here. I know he has a plan and it wil happen in his time, just like everything does. I also know that we will be ok. We have family who loves us and will help us if need be. And foreclosing on our house is not the end of the world (even though I started to get watery eyed as I typed it).

Ok, now I'm full fledge crying. It's the stress. It is getting to be a little overwhelming. And I feel so bad for Josh. This has been so hard on him. He is such a great guy, and not getting a job has nothing to do with his abilities, it is just the crappy economy. But I'm sure for guys losing and job and not being able to find another really messes with your ego and pride.

So all we can do is wait and trust. Ask God for answers to the hundreds of questions we have and just go the way we feel him leading. At this moment we think we are staying put and josh is currently looking for some random job.