I am so excited to announce the birth of baby Alexander Isaiah. His mom, dad, brothers Eli and AJ have anxiously awaited his arrival. He truly is a little blessing and so adorable.

Having a baby has made me aware of many things. Some good, some bad. But one thing that I am utterly aware of is how fleating life really is. We are here only for a moment and then we are gone. And we never know when that time will come. Sorry this is such a downer but I watched Marley and Me today and I have been reading a new blog.

I have been reading the story of Maddie's life. She was such a beautiful girl and she had such a beautiful spirit. My heart breaks for all that she had to go through for such a little person and for all that her parents are having to go through right now.

Just remember to treasure every moment you have with the ones you love. I know I will, I'm going to hug and kiss my boy right now.

and what I do is waste time. I have successfully wasted a WHOLE day. I have done nothing of worth today. No really, it's true. Here is a list of what I have done

1. check email
2. check forum
3. check facebook
4. read blogs
5. read new blog through a friends blog
6. decide to change my blog format
7. check email
8. check forum
9. check facebook
10. continue working on blog format
11. check forum
12. check email
13. check facebook
14. still working on layout
15. check forum
16. decide to write a blog post about how lazy I am

So there you have it. Of course in there I also fed, changed and played with the baby, while that is important I still wasted my day. Here is the list of things I should be doing.

1. dishes
2. vacuum
3. mop
4. oragnize Kai's clothes
5. laundry
6. finish the painting I started 2 years ago!!
7. work out
8. take baby for a walk
9. play with the dog
10. fold towels
11. reading my bible and praying
12. and on and on and on and on and on and on...

So you ask, "Rian why are you being so lazy?" That is a very good question and I think the answser is depression. I don't think it is PPD, I just think it is because of our current situation. You know josh unemployed, we have no health insurance, no job prospects, i can't motivate myself to lose weight, I don't ever leave this house except to work one day a week, and on and on and on and on...

Of course it is a neverending cycle. I'm depressed so I don't do any housework. I look at how messy my house is and that makes me depressed. I'm depressed so I eat crap and drink coke. I see how I haven't lost any weight and it makes me depressed. It really sucks.

BTW, check out my new blog layout. I'm no finished with it, but I think it is coming along nicely!!