A Day in The Life of a Moody Person

I love Thanksgiving. I love the food, the weather, family getting together, all of it. And this year is especially special because we are home with our family for good. I have sooooooo much to be thankful for this year, but first let me tell you what is burdening me.

Jon and Kate. I know, I know, the drama and everyone is over it already. I never watched the show, even when we moved here and I had access to TLC. I just wasn't interested. I knew all that was going on though, I mean who couldn't? Anyways, I did watch one episode about a month ago. It was a re-run where Kate went to have her tummy tuck. In the episode right before Kate goes back for surgery Jon prays for her. I was moved by the moment. One because it is always so touching when a man prays for his wife's safety. Two because it was on TV for the whole world to see. I think sometimes people are afraid to show their faith to the world. After that episode my heart broke for Kate and those kids. Just to see that at one time Jon loved Kate so much and apparently loved Jesus too. How did it all go so wrong? I pray for Kate now and her kids. That God would help her through this and that maybe somehow he would work a miracle and make them a family again.

Now on to the THANKFULNESS!!!!

• I am thankful that I have my family around me.
• I am thankful that my family is healthy, especially my son.
• I am thankful that my husband has a job.
• I am thankful that my in-laws are letting us live with them.
• I am thankful that my husband loves me and is faithful.
• I am thankful for the little baby growing inside my best friend!!!!
• I am thankful for the friends who truly love and care about me.
• I am thankful that God allowed me to live in America.
• I am thankful for the Food Network!!!

I could go on and on. There are so many things to be thankful for. Even when life, and the world seem hard and cold there are still so many things to be thankful for.

I hope that all of you have a very blessed Thanksgiving and take some time to remember what you are thankful for.

Dearest Kai Bear,

We have spent a whole year together already. It has been the best year of my whole life. You are everything I have ever wanted and more. I have enjoyed spending every day with you and watching your grow. I am so amazed at the little boy you have already turned into. You are so smart and funny. For so long I wanted to be a mother, but I never really understood what it meant. Being a mother is the best job I have ever had. I wake up everyday knowing I get to spend it with you. You make my life so happy. I am so thankful to God that he gave me you. You have such a wonderful personality. I look forward to all the years we get to spend together. I can't wait to see all the things you accomplish.

Thank you for being my son and giving me the opportunity to spend my life with you. I love you more than you will ever know.

Love,
Mommy

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Unfortunately that is how old I am now. My birthday this year was kinda weird. I usually really look forward to my birthday but this year I barely remembered it. I think it is because Kai's birthday is so close to mine and I was (and still am) so focused on planning his birthday party(s).

We already had a party for him in Arlington and we are having one in Amarillo next weekend. The one in Arlington went well. We had lots of fun. We rented out this playarea. It was really nice that we were the only people there. The kids seemed to have a good time. I think Kai had fun too even though he wasn't walking yet. He loved the bounce house that had balls in it. He loves to throw everything!!!

The cake part was so funny. I am not going to tell you what he did. When I can get my computer working I will upload the photos and hopefully video so you can see it for yourself. He was just adorable.

Please continue to pray that we will sell our house. It is still a burden.

Kai has had his first infection...Tonsillitis. I would have never guessed. When he started running a fever I was sure it was the Flu since his Poppy was getting over it. But I was wrong. It will be so nice once he can talk and tell me what is wrong. In hindsight I am thinking his throat was hurting a while before his fever started. Poor baby. But he is doing much better now.

We are having his 1st birthday party in Arlington next weekend. I can't wait. I really hope everyone can make it. I think we are gonna have a lot of fun. And it is going to be great to see everyone again.

We still haven't sold our house. But we found out today that the house next door is for sale also. It will be interesting to see what they are asking and compare it to ours. We are thinking we need to paint the inside. It is colorful and apparently some people can't deal with color. I hate to pay to have it done, but if it sells the house then it will be worth it.

We really need to sell it so we can start paying off some debt we have acquired during our days of unemployment. And the sooner we do that the sooner we can buy our own house. Don't get me wrong, I am so thankful to the In-laws for letting us stay here, and honestly it has gone pretty well. It is just so hard to live in someone elses house. To cook in their kitchen. It is harder than I thought it would be. I am ready to be settled.

We are also talking about baby #2 which can't happen until we pay off debt and have a house. Also, I might need some health insurance first too!!!! Amazing AF arrived a few weeks ago. It was nice in a way that she made an appearance. I am interested to see how my cycles are going to be post baby. We are hoping to start trying again in January.

Here are some pics of the cutie pie!!!!!

The day is here again. The national recognized day to remember our babies who left us too soon. There is an "International Wave of Light" tonight at 7 your time. If you have lost a baby light a candle for them. If you haven't but know someone who has light a candle for them. Too many babies are lost every year to miscarriage, stillbirth and infant death. We need to take the taboo out of the grieving and let women know that they are not alone.




To my 5 sweet angels. I miss you everyday. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you and all the dreams I had for you. You made me the mommy that I am to your little brother Kai. I treasure him so much more because of losing you. I love you all so much.

Mommy